"Who Is This Stranger"
Who is this stranger I frequently see
An older lady who I am told is me
I remember her with dark short hair
And dark eyes that sparkled anywhere
Where is the lady I used to know
I guess she left a long time ago
Who is this stranger that I saw
She's a larger lady than I recall
This younger woman I'll never again see
"ME"
The "ME" who ran screaming to your folding bathroom door.
The "ME," shouting your name, but pulling out instead of pushing in,
my heart beating out of my chest, listening to the running water within.
The "Me," within only seconds, punching and pushing in the door,
only to see the tragic bathtub scene, I could take no more.
The "ME," who became someone else who did everything right,
but haunting memories of you, always I will have of that tragic night.
The "ME" refusing to accept you were gone.
I can't even remember how long this denial went on.
The "ME" who thought you would always be in my life,
accepting now the painful truth that cuts like a knife.
The "ME" now searching for my new identity,
But how can I possibly, without you, find the new "ME?"
The mother of Kanda, I will always be
The same "ME" who would not face reality.
Lost to the world I have been,
The "ME" who still remembers when.
My future fears have now faded away.
The "ME" now accepts that you no longer could stay
My new life depends only on "ME."
If only I could figure out who the new "ME" will be.
August 2008
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