""I Wish""
I wish I could begin motherhood anew
with my first newborn baby, YOU!!
I wish I could listen to your first magic word,
that word I so very well remember.
If only I could hold you in my arms while rocking you
to the sweetest slumber.
I wish I had cherished every moment of your life in our
30 short years.
But I never gave thought to living without you
or having to face
such horrendous unbearable fears.
I wish I had been more understanding on your
first day of school.
Instead I was demanding,
hoping to give your courage, I was such a fool.
I wish I had snapped pictures galore
every single day of your life
back then.
So if and when my memory lapses,
I would not be struggling to remember when.
I wish I was still dropping you at
for gymnastics practice by 6:30 AM.
And before work, there was extra time to
enjoy coffee
with my dear Auntie, a lifetime ago, it has been.
I wish I had enjoyed the years
you blossomed beautifully into a gorgeous young girl.
But I was too busy with house work,
laundry, meals, my life in continuous turmoil.
I wish I could walk down the halls
of
Those years you were so very young,
if only I could take a journey
back then.
I wish we were still searching for those popular
shaker sweaters in every imaginable color.
When you were a teenager, we wore the same size
but
I was somewhat taller.
I wish I had not hammered you constantly
about your messy room.
Because, always to have you in my life,
I just merely assumed.
I wish I had encouraged you to further your education
after highschool.
You could have had a great job but
again,
I was an idiot and such a fool.
I wish I could see your beautiful grin
and your excitement to the greatest extreme,
that first year you were chosen as one of the cheerleaders for the
JR High Basketball Team.
And again,
I wish I would have taken tons of pictures for all the
wonderful moments in time.
But it never came to mind that someday
you would no longer be mine.
I wish I was selling your Girl Scout cookies once again.
A dozen boxes of peanut butter sold to the president
of our company every year,
I can still visualize your sweet grin.
I wish I HAD to attend football and basket games
although not by choice.
If only to see you with the cheerleaders
and to hear your giggling voice.
I wish I had paid more attention
to your agonizing worry and frustrating pain.
Never did I think about you having a seizure
while bathing but
For Heaven's Sake, I am your mother,
how could I have been so insane?
I wish I had told you how much
I loved you although you certainly knew.
I had also informed you,
that no way could I live if something were to
happen to
your brother or you.
I wish, I wish, I wish you were still alive
and
I was buried in your place.
The worse crime in this world is the parents who
out live their children.
What a Horrible Disgrace!!!!
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