"I Miss My Child"
Missing my child, I do, every waking moment when,
I struggle and strive, each day, to live my life but then,
an horrific emptiness invades and suddenly over takes me.
I face the tough reality as to what my future life might be.
Missing my child, I do, every waking moment when,
I close my eyes just to remember my daughter's naughty grin.
And confusion has it's own way of becoming overwhelming at times.
I can't believe at 4 1/2 years now, the mountains I still must climb.
Missing my child, I do, every waking moment when,
Her contagious laughter escapes me again and again.
I try my best to remember the sound of her precious voice,
but to view her videos, I won't, and that is my final choice.
Missing my child, I do, every waking moment when,
Numbness flows through me and my head begins to spin.
I feel totally out of control in my life as it is today,
if only I had known, maybe she could have stayed.
Missing my child, I do, every waking moment when,
I remember a special moment with her, if only to go back then.
Or when her dad tells me about his dreams of our daughter, and,
I am rarely that lucky, so I just don't quite understand.
Missing my child, I do, every waking moment when,
I forget and enjoy myself for awhile and the guilt begins
Feeling a lump in my throat, I terribly hurt to my inner soul,
and I soon realize how easily I could lose control.
Missing my child, I do, every waking moment when,
I drive by a craft store and suddenly remember again,
our routine shopping trips and my daughter's delicate caution in,
choosing the most unique craft item there had ever been.
Missing my child, I do, every waking moment when,
the thoughts that go through my head, this battle I can't win.
But my bitterness is starting to very slowly and gently go away.
I guess TIME is the answer and my living from day to day.
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