""Grief Bursts""
Written
In Memory of Our Granddaughter's
Cheerleading Camp Performance
Flora, Illinois High School Gym
December 2007
and
In Memory of our Daughter, Sister and Aunt
""Her Cheerleading Years""
Kanda Michelle Jacobs
5/24/73 - 4/13/04
As I sat quietly in the High School gym,
my mind wondered, remembering back when.
I watched my daughter for years but never gave thought.
Those fun memories would someday be feared a lot.
I really tried to concentrate on the basketball game,
but strangely, I began to think I must be insane.
Cheerleading camp had brought so much fun.
For the young girls, the week of camp was now done.
A glimpse of what cheerleading might be,
and a great chance for our granddaughter to see.
I tried to remain calm as I impatiently waited.
Their performance at Half Time, the girls also anticipated.
I remembered back to those years long ago.
In my mind I could still see her, you know.
There she was, my daughter alive and well.
I thought to myself, how crazy, but I wanted to dwell.
I watched that old familiar cheerleading spot,
where my daughter did cheer, never could I have forgot.
I struggled with tears and a lump in my throat.
My granddaughter now finished, no more could I cope.
Hurriedly, I walked toward the door.
Down the few steps and then before,
I even had a chance to take a long breath,
a Sudden Grief Burst overtook me, nothing less.
Leaning against the building corner,
I realized then I would always be a mourner.
Sobbing uncontrollable and unable to move,
Surprised by this Grief Burst, I certainly did not choose
BACKGROUND DESIGN AND MUSIC APPRECIATION