""MOM IS""
Coming Back To Life
SPRING 2009
As the cool air of Spring blows against my face
I realize I am now living in a very different place
Unsure as to what is going on right now
But I believe I am coming back to life somehow
Seasons have merely passed me by for five years
Since my body and mind had silently disappeared
The loss of my daughter completely shut me down
Imprisoned by own grief, I was tied and bound
I had completely lost myself, my being
And to live life again was beyond my seeing
A kind of calm has come over me this year
But I am confused because nothing is clear
Have I actually come back to life this Spring
Or is it a trick of my mind that doesn't mean a thing
And guilt is certainly a familiar aggravation of sort
Because my daughter's life was tragically cut short
I am coming back to life, is this person a "NEW ME"
Because there is no way I am who I used to be
Losing my job of almost 29 years
Threw me into another aspect of life and fears
Unfamiliar this new life I am beginning to live again
Without my daughter, a new mysterious life begins
A wonderful trip to The Dix Strawberry Fest
is planned in May this year
Hawkins Orchid was Kanda's favorite place
especially the Fall of each year
Surprisingly, living life again slowly came about
When I was not looking and surely had my doubts
Yet, am I ready to come back to life so soon
Because I am secure in this protective cocoon
Maybe it is time to start over this Spring
But am I truly ready for just about anything
Could it be I am afraid to live life without
my child
Or maybe I don't want to feel life
not even for awhile
There is no choice for me from what
I see
I AM COMING BACK TO LIFE
whatever it may be
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